Should I accept all this and not be doubtful according what happened in the past????

by Elias
(Macedonia)

I am in a relationship with an 18 year old girl, she is marvelous, very clever, beautiful and talented, so nice `a real girl`. We have 9 years difference in age, and I like this...I started the relationship when she was 15, She left me once arguing, that she was very young, I trusted her and didn't disturb or ask for other explanations...then after 5 months we met again , She kissed me and told She liked me. We started the relationship again, now even stronger,,,then after 4 months again she just turned off her cell phone, wrote me a message that she wanted to break up. I felt such pain this time around...and told myself I`ll never get back with her again...

I used to see her often, we met again after 6 months and She told me "I haven't forgotten you". She told me `you have all reasons of the world not to believe me` but I am sincere. I didn't answer her for 2 or 3 weeks. I couldn't resist, I was against myself...So I started a relationship with her again. After this she told me that She had a relationship with someone else for a month and She said this is one of the greatest mistakes she had done`...I didn't ask her to elaborate more, I didn't have the courage. She wanted to explain to me what really happened and I always stop her... I don`t know why I don`t want to hear it...

Now, I have 9 months constantly with her, she is so strong and seems to be addicted to me, she loves me, she has totally changed...I sometimes have doubts in her and more in myself for the future. In fact, I accept with all my spirit that I really love her... What advice can you give me? Should I accept all this and not be doubtful according to what happened in past????